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Subject:undesired thought processes
Time:08:08 pm
Current Mood:fullfat much?
today has been rather uneventful. sure, i can think of a shitload of things i need to be doing right now, but that's just not my style to get them done ahead of time.

i cleaned my auntie's house for $20. i'm sad to see that she hasn't been doing too well lately. (she had double bypass surgery) her pulse rate is double the norm and she doesn't look too good at the moment. i hope a trip to the doctor on monday will bring us some good news.

i want to go see sin city. i think i might just go watch it later, by myself. i think an action packed flick with lots of violence and nudity might be enjoyed more alone. and i can smuggle in a burger and an oreo mcflurry. sounds like a plan. yes, it does.

as for now, i'm in the trahern lab passing the time. doing nothing, being nothing, but thinking of everything. i hate thinking.

really now, what the fuck do you guys want? yeah, i really mean guys. not YOU guys, but guys...it seems most go for either a) bottle blondes, b) easy chicks (which almost always constitutes as a bottled blonde), c) skinny chicks who look emaciated and sick, or d) the girl next door.
but how about the chick across the street from the girl next door. no.
or how about her neighbor. nah.

guys suck and so do their desires to be with every woman that's out of their league so to speak. fuck you all.


p.s. i'm starting some sort of diet on monday, thanks to the view of modern day society that you have to be thin, beautiful, and stupid to get anywhere in life. no more value meals at mcdonalds for me!
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adefinitiveact
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Time:2005-04-10 01:56 am (UTC)
im exempt from the sucking and fucking right?
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losertothemax
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Time:2005-04-10 02:01 am (UTC)
do you want to be?
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adefinitiveact
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Time:2005-04-10 03:43 am (UTC)
well i dont meet the "jerk" profile so yeah.
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losertothemax
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Time:2005-04-11 10:36 am (UTC)
wish granted.
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lorac1061
Subject:Response
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Time:2005-04-10 02:01 am (UTC)

I beg to differ.

Perhaps you and I could discuss our differences about genders before and then after Sin City?

If anything, I could use a reason to get out of this house, and I've heard nothing but great things about the movie.

I'm a nice guy, and I'd like a chance to show you that we do, in fact, exist. We just don't get out much.

E-mail is Lorac1061@hotmail.com write me, I'm free all the time.
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a_tron
Subject:Re: Response
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Time:2005-04-10 03:56 am (UTC)
*votes you take him up on his offer*
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jscottinfo
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Time:2005-04-10 02:51 am (UTC)
It's not an issue of guys or even girls.. it all comes down to people mindlessly searching for that "magical person they will spend forever with".. people get so frustrated that so and so and so and so only goes for so and so when reality people are just looking to "connect" with the "one" and in this journey, there prove to be so many that either arent the one or the the one you may think is the one isnt because in that person's eyes you aren't the one (and in terms of going for unobtainable beauty, it makes sense for those searching for the fairy tale to look for someone to fit that part doesn't it? Be it a dead ringer for Angeline Jolie or Johnny Depp). And the more people beat themselves up about this crap, the more self inflicted stress they have. Just let go, if you end up with someone you do, if you don't you don't. Better to be honest either way, than self diluted and unhappy deep down. Society tells you from day one that the most important part of living "happily ever after" is having that prince or princess. Fuck them and fuck societies definition of happiness, it sure as hell isn't mine. This is not saying that I am not open to dating, connecting, and loving, it just means my happiness does not depend on it.. my happiness comes from knowing myself intimately, knowing I love me and I love the people around me.. my happiness comes from within.. I'm ranting, but I read these types of journals every day and people need to stop blaming genders and just be. Going back to the question of "what do guys want" do you really know what it is you want? I love you kiddo and I hope this torment pisses off and lets you be.
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adefinitiveact
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Time:2005-04-10 03:46 am (UTC)
They say you dont know what you had until you lost it. Well I dont think you know what you want until you have it.
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jscottinfo
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Time:2005-04-10 05:37 am (UTC)
Agreed.
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losertothemax
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Time:2005-04-11 10:36 am (UTC)
true dat, homie.
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i_get_it_
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Time:2005-04-10 07:38 am (UTC)
I agree with Jason, he's so wise ;P

As to the desire to diet to be thin, believe me, I more than understand how you feel. But really, is that going to make you happy? You shouldn't lose weight to be thin, and especially not to be attractive to others. Do it because you want to be healthy and more fit. My body image has been something I've struggled with since the first time somebody ever called me fat. I've gone through plenty of self-loathing, but I finally decided that I liked myself the way I was and I didn't ever think anything was wrong with me until somebody else said there was. Society makes it hard, but you've always struck me as somebody who was really self-confident. You're adorable and there is nothing that you should feel is necessary to change about your body.
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losertothemax
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Time:2005-04-11 10:38 am (UTC)
it's just the guy issues that make me struggle with weight. screw society. oprah was hot even before she lost all that weight! ;p
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losertothemax
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Time:2005-04-11 10:39 am (UTC)
all hail the mighty jason scott.
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xporphyria
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Time:2005-04-10 04:23 am (UTC)
man does it piss me off to have a geeky guy come into work one day(i'm strangely attracted to geeky guys), and me think 'hmm maybe i can ask this guy to hang out.' then the next day he comes in with this BEAUTIFUL TALL THIN BLONDE chick. (this happened last week btw)

rockin
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losertothemax
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Time:2005-04-11 11:21 am (UTC)
geeky guys are hot! and apparently they can score with thin, blonde chicks. wonder if she was smart?!
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travelosopher
Subject:A friend of protoman20xx's writes:
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Time:2005-04-10 06:04 am (UTC)

jscottinfo had a great point, when he said, "What do you want?" That is really the most important question. Without answering it, you can't be prepared to ask whether or not what guys want is even important to you. Do you want a guy who sees, in you, the pre-established traits that he desires; or do you want a guy with whom you are friends, first, and who then realizes that you are everything he wants. The best relationships start off as friendships. Sure, in order to take it to the next phase, you have to be at least somewhat sexually attracted to the person. Eventually, however, the sex loses the appeal that it once had (and I'm talking years down the line), and you start wondering if you might be able to have with someone else what you have with whomever you're with. That will not happen if your lover is also your best friend!

Having said that, I will give you a few traits that guys who have a healthy mental and emotional disposition are most likely to look for in a girl with whom they wish to have a long-term relationship:

  1. A positive attitude
  2. A healthy figure
  3. A good sense of humor
  4. The ability to recognize what's really important, and let the little stuff slide
  5. Good Self-Esteem / confidence without hubris
  6. Emotional maturity (being child-like about some things is good, but being childish is never attractive)
  7. A healthy sexual appetite. Definitions of this will, obviously, vary depending on the people involved.
  8. Agreement about the things that are important: social views, religious/spiritual views, etc.

Finally, I'd like to point out that there is a huge difference between "guys" and "Men." If you're just looking for someone to fuck who isn't into drugs, has no venereal diseases, doesn't have a criminal record, and who won't slap you around... some guys will suffice for your purposes. If, however, you're looking for a Man- the kind who'll be your best friend and the love of your life, you might start looking for guys who are looking for the right sort of traits in you. Not all of us want "bottle blondes" with 36-28-34 figures, and their legs spread wide.

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losertothemax
Subject:Re: A friend of protoman20xx's writes:
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Time:2005-04-11 10:43 am (UTC)
yeah thanks. but i knew all that, really.
keep in mind that my journal is just composed of rantings of a woman who thinks too much. mmmkay.

and it's 36-24-26. sir mix-a-lot is awesome.
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barakas
Subject:2 step program
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Time:2005-04-10 09:06 am (UTC)
1. stop listening to opinions including this one.
2. suffering is the only way to learn anything. history has proven this to us again and again. you are a better person for it.
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(Anonymous)
Subject:Re: 2 step program
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Time:2005-04-11 05:35 am (UTC)
Asceticism = garbage.
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losertothemax
Subject:Re: 2 step program
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Time:2005-04-11 10:45 am (UTC)
hey, take your negative comments somewhere else, bub.
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losertothemax
Subject:Re: 2 step program
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Time:2005-04-11 10:46 am (UTC)
agreed.
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unabomber13
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Time:2005-04-10 08:00 pm (UTC)
It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything.
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(Anonymous)
Subject:Fight Club
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Time:2005-04-11 05:35 am (UTC)
Movie Quotes: The penultimate structure for modern wisdom. Shakespeare is rolling in his grave, somewhere.
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unabomber13
Subject:Re: Fight Club
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Time:2005-04-11 05:38 am (UTC)
I never claimed to be wise.. and by the way.. fuck Shakespeare.
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losertothemax
Subject:Re: Fight Club
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Time:2005-04-11 10:47 am (UTC)
i hate reading that shakespeare shit! romeo and juliet is no harry potter.
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