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Subject:an evaluation
Time:12:28 am
Current Mood:confusedoh, what to do...?
sean and i ate lunch. it wasn't fun, but it wasn't horrible either. well, he said he'd still like to date me if that was okay in my book. my first gut feeling is to say yes, free food, whoot! but i know myself all too well, and i will still be attached. i am still attached. he said he wanted to take it slow. fine. that doesn't mean he still can't call me his girlfriend, right? i asked him where he wanted to go, and all he can ever come up with is this b.s. about moving. just let it flow and we'll see how it works when i move, he says. but i want to know how he feels about me. i care about you very much, he says. yeah, that's nice. but if i knew what he wanted, how he felt exactly, and where he wanted it to go, we could make this work and it would be so much easier to understand. sure we can take it slow all he wants to, but it's not going to hurt to think of how we want all of this to end up. with that, we can work towards a common goal. and that's what i want: cooperation. well, and love. but i know he won't tell me that. i know he feels it, but you have to understand sean. he's not an emotional guy. yeah i want a guy with emotions. i want a guy that expresses his emotions. but i don't want a whiny ass bitch either. that's my job. ;p sean's not a whiny ass bitch at all, thank god. he's just a stubborn jackass, but atleast he admits it. he's never really treated me bad, not at all. i just would like more. more of an effort maybe, more in general. am i asking too much? i miss him already.
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giraffe_keeper
Subject:experience
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Time:2005-04-15 04:16 pm (UTC)
Speaking from 4.5 years of experience, I could recant tales for hours about how I tried to make it work. How I finally changed in hopes that he would change.
People never change.
Its perfectly fine to be alone for awhile. You'll learn a lot about yourself.
Don't settle, if you're not euphoric in the relationship, move on. It's not going to get better, just giving it time won't work. If he wanted what you wanted, it would be that way, you shouldn't have to bribe and beg and push and wait for it.
What happens if you do have a future together? Can you see it in 20 years? Will you still be frustrated and left wanting? I think so.
A relationship is 50/50. What you're looking at is like 90/10.
Run away and save yourself.
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